One of my favorite shows is How I Met Your Mother. Admittedly, the last season killed the show, but the early seasons were really good. My favorite character on the show is Barney Stinson. I know, I’m a Bible major and he is, well, Barney. I just love his character development throughout the series. His character’s ‘catchphrase’ is simply, “Legendary.” My favorite quote from the show is when he says, “it’s going to be legen – wait for it – and I hope you’re not lactose intolerant because the second half of the word is – dary!” This is a funny quip in the show, and it is arguably one of the best lines on television. If anything describes my life, it’s this quote (or, at least, I hope it is). Today, as I begin to write my blog, I want to talk to you about waiting.
Waiting is quite possibly my least favorite thing to do. I don’t know anyone who enjoys waiting, but I especially hate to wait. I want to do everything now. I want to write a book now, I want to do my homework now, I want to ride a horse now, I want to order that thing on Amazon that I can’t quite afford NOW. I’m horrible at accomplishing things because I lack patience. I started my sophomore fall semester of college on Monday, and patience is a virtue I have been forced to have. There is one building on campus for all of the Bible/ministry classes, and unfortunately, they painted that building the weekend prior to the start of classes. The building is incredibly old, and it doesn’t get very good ventilation, so the entire building reeks of paint. I have three classes, plus Chapel, in that building, and cannot spend more than 15 minutes in there without developing a massive migraine. It’s the first week of classes, and the last thing I want to do is use three of my three unexcused absences. It’s the first week of classes, and the last thing I want to do is wait to begin classes. To top things off, I ran out of CBD oil (the bottle isn’t clear, so I never know when it’s gone until it is). It is isolating, difficult, and stressful. But, I have to wait.
I think that we get into seasons of life that are legendary. This summer was really good for me. I enjoyed my job as an intern, and I enjoyed doing daycare for the children’s ministry. I was so ready to get back into classes, though. After this internship, it is clear to me that I am meant to go into ministry, and I know I need the proper training to do so. I want to make it through college and my classes, but I also need to take care of my mental and physical health (for more information on this, visit my blog post, C’s Get Degrees). I’m in this period of waiting for it. With waiting, and not knowing comes a sense of dread. I don’t know when the paint smell will be gone. I don’t know when I will feel well enough to go back to classes. And, what happens if I go to class and the smell isn’t gone, and I get sick again? I’m in a period where I’m hoping I’m not lactose intolerant because I know that some form of ‘dary’ is coming. But, I know that in some way, somehow, God will provide. Things will work out, even if they don’t work out the way I want. The dary will come, and it will complete the legend portion.
That doesn’t mean waiting is easy. The last thing I want to do is wait for paint to dry. I know it will take forever, and I know that there is a chance the paint smell will continue to linger. But I have to wait because I know my health is important.
“We can rejoice, too, when we run into problems and trials, for we know that they help us develop endurance. And endurance develops strength of character, and character strengthens our confident hope of salvation.”
I don’t like this verse. Like I said, I don’t have any patience. I live in the now. And, unfortunately, God doesn’t call us to live for the now. It sucks. I hate waiting. I hate trials and problems. I want a quick fix, and I want it now. I’m sure most of you reading this can relate. I hated Barney Stinson during the first few seasons of How I Met Your Mother. He was misogynistic, aloof, and cynical. He was my least favorite character! But as the seasons went on, and as I watched his character develop, I learned to like the person he was becoming. And, in the final episode (spoiler) he becomes an amazing father. But, had I judged him based on his character in the first episode, I never would have seen how great and lovable he became. But I continued to watch, and I waited for it.
When I ride horses, and I jump, one of my biggest mistakes early on in my riding was jumping too early. I would get three strides out in front of a jump, and move into jumping position. The horse would jump too soon, and it would be a complete disaster. I didn’t want to wait for the jump, I wanted to get over it. Had I never learned to wait for the jump to come, I would never have had fun. Overjumping is terrifying, can be dangerous, and not fun. Now, I can enjoy the jump. But it took time, practice, and trial and error. I had to learn patience. I had to wait for it.
And I know that I have to wait for the classrooms to air out. I have to endure this trial with patience. I know that God has called me to endure, to build my character so that I can become the person He created me to be in the future. I must wait for the future to come, and I must be careful not to wish away the present because time is a ticking clock.
Trust In You by Lauren Daigle
“When You don’t part the waters
I wish I could walk through
When You don’t give the answers
As I cry out to You
I will trust, I will trust, I will trust in You
Truth is, You know what tomorrow brings
There’s not a day ahead You have not seen
So let all things be my life and breath
I want what You want Lord and nothing less”